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Goals for 2010 or I'm too tired for creative titles.

This list is a draft, but will be finalized by the time 2010 starts. Expect revisions.

1. Do something terrifyingly creative and exposing. See previous post about live music. Even if I get humiliated, I have got to do something to feel like I'm doing more than taking up space.

2. Become a certified South Carolina Barbeque Association judge. I'm not kidding.

3. Remember that people only really like you if you're not faking it. There are some specific actions I'm thinking about taking here, but they're privado.

4. Be a better friend.

5. Kick a bad habit I picked up this year. Said bad habit shall remain secret, but it's there, and all the wrong people know about it.

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Laura said…
disclaimer: i am not a professional musician. i am a strict dilettante who struggles with performing other people's songs on my guitar for my family and friends.

That being said, I think that what it requires is not so much a lack of fear as a means of dealing with the inevitable fear, for some an overwhelming fear. A strategy or strategies for battling down the feelings of worthlessness and shame that rise up, and not letting them choke out your little light.

it sounds like you are on the precipice of something amazing. happy new year to you.
December 26, 2009 at 11:26 PM
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