pulling it out in the ninth... what!

I am supposed to be waking up in 4 hours to head for Nueva York and instead I am just awake. Damn it all.

So, a list. Things I am afraid of:

1. Making an idiot of myself.

Full on idiot mode. Awesome.

2. Not doing things because I'm so afraid of making an idiot of myself.

Less fun, more uncomfortable me. Lame.

3. Those signs on the interstate that say, "No one expects brain injury." I'm sorry, but wtf? I could not find a picture of this, thank goodness, because I wouldn't be able to look at it if I had.

4. Snakes.

Despite being a biologist, I would be terrified to pick up this snake. Once it was in my hand, I'd be fine, but don't expect me to grab the damned thing.

5. Having what happened to my mom happen to me. Give money to the ALS Association. I mean it.

6. Just taking up space and leaving nothing of value behind when I go. So far, I'm working on positively influencing this tiny person:

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