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We're not getting any better at losing people.

My grandmother is in the hospital in SC.  Until today, I think we all had a lot of faith in the idea that she'd get better.  I saw her yesterday and she seemed to be improving. Now they think she is going to die. She's drowning in fluid in her lungs. Her kidneys aren't working. She has some kind of strange anemia with no apparent cause.  I think she's really tired.  I would be.

I'm scared. I'm scared she's going to die and everyone is going to be really sad, and there will be another big hole in our family. I'm worried about my dad too.  In the past 6 months, his best friend died, his chihuahua (who was about 20 years old) died, and now his mom is probably going to die. I'm scared he's going to be so depressed that he's going to give up and die too, and I need him.

They don't know how long she's going to last. Her breathing is rapid and shallow, and my dad doesn't want to leave her.  My nephew has school tomorrow and this could go on all night, so my sister wants to go home.  She doesn't want my dad to stay overnight because he's not in the best health himself. He's in a wheelchair and he gets tired easily. Sitting in a hospital room all night would probably be bad for him. My sister and I were texting and I stopped answering because I'm not sure what she should do either.

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