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Acceptance or something like it

Yes kids, I'm drunk. And in vino veritas. I may even turn off comments for this post as I know ya love me and you'll be all supportive and whatnot.

Thing is, I realized tonight, walking home alone, stubbornly alone, how truly alone I am. How truly alone we all are. How I am likely to die alone, more so than most, simply bc I'm kind of a weird girl. It's fine. It is what it is, but every now and then, when I'm three sheets to the wind, it really pisses me off.  How unfair life is, how random, how twisted and sick and in control of all of us it is.

Dear Life, Drunk Denise says to hell with you.

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Denise said…
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March 31, 2011 at 7:37 AM
Denise said…
Carl, Nah. No sad face. The human condition is a difficult one. Sometimes it makes me made. That seems fair.
March 31, 2011 at 7:40 AM
Jessica said…
Just come live with me on my mini-commune. We start taking applications next summer. :)
April 2, 2011 at 10:59 AM
Briana said…
Life is unfair, and it's perfectly reasonable to be mad about that...!
April 5, 2011 at 10:58 PM
Anonymous said…
We all feel the same way sometimes...promise.
May 18, 2011 at 4:38 PM
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