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Anger Management FAIL

I've been having anger management issues lately. I can tell they are getting to be issues because I'm starting to take things personally that maybe I shouldn't. People and situations have been disappointing me lately in bizarre and unexpected ways, and while 95% of what is going on actually has very little to do with me, after a while it becomes difficult to fathom that it could all be coincidence. I find myself wondering what sort of bad-planning mistakes I've made that have resulted in my current situation.

I won't go into what's been happening here b/c a lot of what's going on just shouldn't be public, but I find myself looking critically at my situation and wondering how I can improve it, and I'm kind of at my wit's end about a lot of things. I don't feel despair or anything, just a resignation to sit back until the tide changes direction. I feel like I'm doing everything I can to paddle against the current just now, but it's difficult not to stew in the meanwhile. Essentially, I just needed a put on your big girl panties public pep-talk. Done. Now back to work.

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Briana said…
let's have lunch - while easier said than done - the trick to anger seems to be turning it into decisive action. I recently figured out who some of my anger was directed at - but knowledge is only power if you know what to do next. Maybe we give each other some "big-girl pants" advice. Or at least we can have a nice lunch.
August 15, 2009 at 10:53 PM
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